Graduation is tomorrow. Gotta pass the NCLEX and I will be an RN. Job stability and a job I can be proud of at the age of 22.

Mom had her biopsy done yesterday. 6 days until we should know something.

I worked a 12 today and ended it with papaw being sent to the ICU and having to go pick up Mamaw.

My first real interview is Monday and I’m so scared/nervous I won’t have the qualifications they’re looking for.

Sometimes I get tired of being the “strong one”.

I can’t express how bummed I am about my GPA. I held strong to my 3.9 for so long. 3.5 just isn’t acceptable…

:(

It is crazy how many private messages I get and how often I am approached by people wanting to know my “secret” or my “diet plan”. It feels good to have people tell me how inspiring I am but then again it makes me incredibly self-conscious. I don’t see what everyone else sees. I see that the numbers on the scale have went down but I physically see no difference. My self-esteem is lower now than it was 50 pounds ago. All I see is what I still need to lose and how gross I still am. I can’t wait for school to be over. I want to reach my goal so bad but I don’t know if it’s possible. I just need to keep reminding myself what I have told so many others. I have to take baby steps and one week at a time. It will take time and hard work, but can be done.

Hopefully…

fuckyeahlaughters:

OMGGGG ALWAYS, IM NOT LYINGG HAHAHA

funnest part of day xD

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My chest is so tight. I feel the attack coming. All I want to do is shut my mind off. Is my worst nightmare coming true? I can’t handle this….

I’ve been slacking on my weight loss. I’m down 50 pounds. If I can lose 20 more I will reward myself with a belly button ring (if I’m happy with myself then). It’s been 3 weeks since my gallbladder surgery so I believe the gym is calling my name this week. It’s time to officially hit my second goal weight.